The T word

Of all the things that gave me pause in my life, I never thought I would be almost reduced to tears by the T word.

I'm just not ready for it. Really. I know that all the signs were there, and that one day it would happen to me too, but really, this is *way* too soon. I am not prepared. At all. You think you are, because it is a reality that most people have to face at some point, but nothing could have prepared me for that moment when the doctor told me it was time.

And again, I must say, I am really, really, really, really, really, really not ready for it. But I guess I will have to face my pain, my anxiety about it. As much as I want to turn back the clock to an earlier, more simpler time, some point soon I am going to have to face facts.

My little darlin' is a Toddler now..